in the life of big D

why do i still have this feeling? its been to long, its over, stop playing this schrade that it might happen. i cant stop thinking about her and what we used to be, how she hoged my arm and snuggled up on my schoulder at the movies, when we held hands all night long, when we foged up the windows in my old chevy. yea it was great, actually the best thing ever but its all over now so stop thinking about her already, because every time you do you go into this staying up all night, listening to deprssing music and crying your self to sleep mode. so stop thinking about her and get on with your life. youll never move on if you keep on thinking about her like this and youll be depressed for the rest of your life.

i dont really want to put this up cuz i dont see the use in it, i dont see the use of anything anymore. it all seems so tedious and un fulfilling, nothing is right, everything seems to be spyrilling downword. life sucks, all this just makes me want to give up on everything and just cawl off into a hole and die.

lmao went from being sad cuz im forever alone to emo >.<

but life goes on and all this is just a cluster fu#$%&* of how im feeling right now